I need a place to write what I feel when I think about you.
Right now,
Patrick Gow.
After seeing those videos of us together, kissing, just our personalities, reminds me why we were so perfect.. Why did I ruin it? Why was I so blind to your feelings for me? What was wrong with me..? Why did I loose something so amazing.. so perfect. I feel like being happy is so wrong, I just mentally cant be straight up happy anymore. I cant.. parshally.. sometimes. But when your on my mind.. kissing my Tyler.. being with him.. feels so wrong, sickening. I could throw up. I love him, I do. But Patrick, they say you know when you found the love of your life, and well I know, and its too late for me. Because it was you, and your gone. Your not just gone as in not mine.. but gone.. in another world, where Ill never get to see you, hold you, talk to you, hear your voice, again.. anything. You were my everything.. you will always be my everything.. such a small part of me is open to a new relationship.. the one im in.. but its the best I can do. Youll always have all of me.
