December 2010
50 posts
There are so many things I want to say to you. And...
There’s actually a lot of things i’d like to say to a lot of people. But I don’t.
Just hit 40 fallowers, is it sad that I'm excited?...
Good thing I'm not 18,
Id be a smokerr. And good thing I’m not 21 because i’d be an alchohalic. Loveethatstuff. I need away. Hawaii sounds lovely. Or up in the mountains in a cabin.
honestly, every day i get closer to giving up.
almost started crying at work today..
fuck.
Meeemz, another lesson learned...: Word of advice →
New things, situations, people that/who come into your life will never ever be the same as ‘what was’ in the past. But even though that fact itself may seem painful as it is… the beauty I found in it, is that you learn different lessons from each one …Eventually making you stronger. I think…
my only problem is, I know its only been a month, but everyone in this world is so fucked up.....
"Twenty years from now you will be more...
I agree with this, but I don’t. There are so many things I want to do, but so many, almost all of them will bite me in the ass. WHHHATTTTHHHEEEFUUUUUH.
Teacher asks you to pair up with a partner for a...
Look at your friend across the room like.
sooooo true xD
It's almost a new year... Remember celebrating...
Look’s like we failed.Lied. and Cheated ourselves out of the truth.At least I did. I knew you wouldn’t stay with me like you said.
Can't believe its almost been a month.
fuck.
I decided I love the feeling of someone being a...
Yes.its nice.
Love this...
:)
Tonight was a good night.
Thank you for taking me out, and giving me a good time. Thank you for respecting me and not trying anything more than just an arm around my shoulder. Thank you for being cute, and proving me wrong for my long ago original thoughts about you. Oh, and thanks for the movie. :)
I just wanted to tell you that I forgive you. I...
Haven't been on a legit date in a long time haha
This will be an experiance. I’m barely learning how to flirt again. Paha.
I still don't know what Im supposed to say to...
fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.whydoyoudothisto...
I haven’t cried in over two weeks.. and I feel as if right now I might burst and my room will become the next atlantic ocean… Why is it, I can never, ever, have what I want&need. EEVVERRRR. I want to complain about so many things. I hope being a good person will get me somewhere and will the favor will be returned to me eventually… Im so tired of just settling for things.....
Really really really miss the feeling of...
:(
stop running away from your fears and your...
be a man and deal with it. you are who you are, and you cant change that.
The feeling of being held through out the night...
Had a good night. Realizing how perfect we are for each other is also fought with the reality of how un-perfect we are. Our true inner selves were braught out with each other and shone through our eyes and hearts, but the need to be out there, and have what we see in movies, or what we think other people had was there too. Even if it isn’t us, we needed to go out there and do it, and live...
Make love to me.
Feeling lost and confused.
We haven’t talked in over a week.
Have I even ran through your head since we last...
For some reason, I really doubt it. Your running through my mind a lot lately. I try to block it out with flirting with gorgeous guys. It’s not helping.
I miss my cutester, and our cuddle chair..
:(
nobody else gets it either, glad its not just me.
How you can hold me, and cry with me, sometimes harder than me. Then stay the night, then cry harder with me then next morning. Then leave, and never look back, and move on with your life like I didnt exists. Howcanyoulive?
everything about youuu xD
I like to pretend your really not existant, and...
I find that;
When I get upset, and start thinking about you, and start hurting inside, it makes me want to do somthing stupid and daring. I want to shove bigger gauges through so I feel that little ounce of pain, for a purpose, and I want to go get a piercing, or just go get drunk, anything. I dont know why..
its been two weeks... :'l
sex.sex.sex.sex.sex.sex.
What to do.
Wish it was as easy for me to replace you as it...
Nobody can take the away the spot you burned into my heart. Nobody will give me the feelings you did..
We haven't talked in two days, and yesterday was...
I feel sick, and upset, and confused.
Going to eat some food, and wish I wasnt alone...
I can actually eat now, which you could say is an improvement. I still get sick, and nauseous. I still catch myself thinking about you all the time, and everything will you bring me back into my mind. I want to know where you went all of a sudden. Where my best friend went, the love of my life. You happiness evaporated, you evaporated. I’m scared your going to look in the wrong places for...
How I fell in love again. →
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(I’m sorry this is so long, but the length is very necessary)
The last time my mother wiped a tear of mine, it was eleven o’clock at night.
I felt a shudder curl up my spine as I felt her warm fingertips trace my cheek, removing the moisture, extracting the sadness, if only for a moment. I looked up at her and felt myself collapse into her comfort. She stroked my head and shushed,...
Enjoying my freedom, I'm out like every night. Hah...
I’d choose you over boys and late nights still.